In a little less than four hours I am going to be getting on a plane and beginning my journey to Spain. This is going to be my first trip there since I was 16 and I am so excited to be able to share it with both Matt and Aaron. This is also my first international climbing trip, so I am doubly excited!
The past few weeks have been pretty rough. I have dealt with an anxiety disorder for nearly five years now, and for some reason in the past two months it has gotten completely out of control. I was having upwards of 20-30 attacks a day and they were even keeping me up at night. After Matt left it got to the point where I couldn't handle them anymore, and I did something I hadn't done before. I reached out for help. This was something I'd always been scared to do for fear that I would find myself alone and wondering what to do next. But instead of being alone, I was suddenly surrounded by two of my closest friends with thier love and support. I went to my doctor and got an ssri to help me rebalance the imbalance in my brain, and today I can honestly say that I feel really good!
With some work and the continued support of the ones I love, I think I will be much better in the coming months! It feels really good to make it through entire days without one anxiety attack, and I look forward to keeping it that way!
That said, I am also really excited that I get to see Matty tomorrow! It has been three weeks now, and it is going to feel so good to have his arms around me again. I've been packed for a couple of days now, just waiting for today to come so I could fly away to see my baby! From the reports he's given me the climbing is incredible and the weather forecast looks so good for!! 70 degrees and sunny! And with any luck it will be full blown spring when we get back in two weeks (good luck right?)
Anyway, I will be updating this while I am on my trip! I look forward to sharing all of the adventures to come!
Hasta Luego!
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